Greetings in Jesus name. I pray that this letter finds you feeling blessed as you rest in the love and grace of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Chris and I are grateful to have arrived safely back in Krinkrin after having had a blessed and great time in the States with family and friends. I praise God that we had the opportunity to go, and I pray that everyone of you who were participants in our trip, as in prayer, fellowship, encouraging, and the giving financially for our trip, will receive abundant blessings from God for your willing hearts to serve our Lord in the way God directed you.
This past weekend we did a conference for the young girls in KrinKrin. God’s hand was all over it and we believe many seeds were planted. Please pray that the seeds that were planted will begin to grow and produce fruit.
While I was gone God prompted me to write down one of my testimony’s on how He in His goodness gave me, what I called; “Blessings in Disguise”.
Blessings in Disguise
A testimony on how, when my life looked all gray, never to be colorful again When God in his great mercy allowed me a small glimpse of the things through His eyes, it all looked overwhelmingly different. What was I to make of everything He had just revealed to me?
I, a young girl at the age of 21 had something seriously wrong with my stomach for over five years now. I was sick and could not seem to get any better, only worse. I now had nut allergies for over 12 years, an allergy to all soy products, had to use glasses for about five years, then in the summer of 2014, about 2 ½ years ago I found out that I had trouble with my blood sugar, and my immune system kept going downhill.
At first I thought my blood sugar trouble was just hypoglycemia and it might get better with time. But as I studied up on blood sugar problems I found out that I was not hypoglycemia but hyperglycemia, a true diabetic.
It was hard to accept at first, and I especially found it hard to thank God for it when I came across 1Th 5:16-18; Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Chris Jesus.
Knowing that all scripture was God breathed… 2Ti 3:(16-18) and that His desire was for me to rejoice in the Him and to thank Him for everything, I ended up breaking down and having a good long talk with God. I explained how I wanted to thank Him for all this trouble because that’s what he wanted from me, but if I did it would only be empty words and not from my heart, and I also knew that he did not desire a bunch of lies. Realizing that something had to change, I asked him to reveal to me what I needed to understand so I could praise and thank him with all my heart. With that God allowed me to see a small corner of the big picture. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will direct your paths. Pr 3:(5-6) “For my thought are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts. Is 55:(8-9)
It was because of my sickness that my walk with God became a beautiful picture of his love and grace.
On recognizing all of that, I chose to, and was able to, whole heartedly praise and thank God for all the struggles and trials that He allowed to come my way because I saw how much closer it brought me to Him. Had it not been for all these trials, my walk with Christ would defeniantly not be what it is today.
Every time I would get down hearted I would, with God’s strength, begin singing, praying, and praising Him for all of it and by the time I was done praying my spirit would be lifted and light again. Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you; your right hand upholds me. Ps 63:(7-8)
During this time God also grew my faith in the way He cared for me and always provided the food I needed for my special diet, to help somewhat keep my blood sugar stable…For we are the people of his pasture, the flock under his care… Ps 95:7
Then God asked me the question; “do you really believe what I have promised you in the scriptures?” “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jer 29:11. He continued, “you have done well in praising and thanking me for the situation that I have allowed you to be in. Now I want to take you to a deeper level of worship. For I desire more for my children to be spiritually strong then strong physically. How much is our relationship worth to you? Are you willing to be sick for the rest of your life if that’s what it takes to maintain and strengthen our relationship? Are you willing to surrender more and trust me that I know what’s best for you?”
I wanted to say, “Yes Lord, of course I believe! Yes, I trust that you know best!” But wait, was that and honest answer? Was I really ok with that? How much was my relationship with Christ, that I so dearly loved, worth to me? Was I willing to always be sick, never to do physical work again, never to get better, only worse? Was I willing to surrender to that point? Feeling this enormous battle within my heart and soul I cried out to God and begged Him to come in his might and power and do what it takes to make me willing to surrender it all to Him, even when it was too much for me to comprehend.
And the Lord as always, was faithful and heard my desperate cry.You, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high. I call out to the LORD, and he answers me…Ps 3:(3-4) Through God and his goodness I found hope and was willing to put His will above my own, trusting and believing that He did see the end from the beginning and that He knew what was best. And with the grace of God, at that point I gave Him access to do want needed to happen for me to continually grow my roots deeper in Him. And yes, I was willing to be sick the rest of my life if that’s what it took.My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness… 2Co 12:9 Praise be to God our Father that He desires to be everything for his children. I in my own strength could never have understood and become willing to surrender it all to Him.
On the evening of March 27 2015 God did something totally amazing in my life. There was a hand-full of believers at our house and God put it on one of the guys’ hearts’ to pray for me. And as always I accepted; because I was always glad to have more prayer.
As we began to pray God spoke to my spirit and told me, “tonight you will be healed.”
On hearing this, a piece of me got really excited, yet the other part of me was scared and full of doubt…. Doubt saying, “God why tonight when all the other times my friends prayed for me it was always, “not today,” and I did not get healed? How is tonight so different? Lord is this really you? What if I’m hearing wrong? What if I proclaim, “I am healed,” thinking I have enough faith and when it actually comes down to it I don’t have enough faith to be healed? It will make me look bad, but worse than that, God, your name will be destroyed because of my lack of faith. God I know you have the power to heal. You don’t lack anything, but I do. To be honest with you God, I don’t have enough faith, I try but I can’t believe.”
Then God in His still small voice told me, “you are right, you can’t have faith on your own, but I live in you and I believe, so you can believe too.” …Because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. 1Jn 4:4
At that point there was an overwhelming amount of excitement that swept over me as the peace of God rested on me. As God poured out his overflowing cup of love upon me I was able to understand a new level of God’s great, unfailing and unconditional love for me; and I knew, I was healed! I could believe because of Christ, who lived within me.
God didn’t just heal me from one sickness, but from everything! Praise be to God! I can’t praise him enough! I felt almost speechless for almost 24 hours just in awe of God’s love for me. I wanted to tell everyone what He had done but I couldn’t seem to put into words the greatness of his love for me.
My family was there in the midst when I got healed, yet the next day their jaws almost dropped as I stood there eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich (something that was off my plate by a long shot). God is good! I’m free to eat nuts and soy products all I want. Also as I sit here writing this letter without my glasses, a full year and a half later, I can see just fine and I don’t have a splitting headache. Getting healed from diabetes is unheard of from a medical point of view, as well as the stomach problem that no doctor could figure out. God healed it all!
I can’t begin to thank him enough for his great love for us, and the peace and joy we can have in the middle of our struggles if we leave it in God’s hands and begin to praise him for what we have.
I praise God that he allowed me to be sick all those years. It was for my own benefit and good. Because now, I no longer just know about Jesus and that He is the Savior of the world but that He wants to be a part of every area of my life so I can have true life, I have come that they may have life, and have it abundantly. Jn 10:10 I now know Him as a personal friend, my best friend that will never leave my side. He has given me all I’ll ever need and more. He is my all in all.
But the greatest part is that He doesn’t desire that for just one person, two people or even just a hand full of people; He wants to be that for everyone. This is good and pleases God our Savior, who wants all people to come to a knowledge of the truth. For there is one God and one mediator between God and mankind, the man Christ Jesus, who gave himself as a ransom for all people… 1Ti 2:4
God created you with love and He allows you to go through hard times to mold you into something more beautiful. It is for your own benefit and good. It’s your blessing in disguise. In all this greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief an all kinds of trials. These have come that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which parishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 1Pe 1:(6-7)
It’s a choice to allow Him to do with our life as He sees best, or continue hanging on to things, scared that He will do something with us that will not be very comfortable. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. Mt 16:25 The spirit gives life; the flesh counts as nothing. The words I have spoken to you—they are full of life. Jn 6:63 As long as we still have the breath of life in our lungs, God desires to continually be molding us.…the Lord declares; “like clay in the hands of the potter, so are you in my hands.” Jer 18:6 I will sing of the Lord’s great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations. I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you have established your faithfulness in the heavens itself. Ps 89:(1-2)
Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant, brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may He work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen. Heb 13:(20-21)
Written with the power, strength and love of our Lord and Savior; Your sister in Christ Eva Lee